Mother’s Day Revisited

I stood there absorbed by the crimson rose one of the church kids had given me. “What would you like to do for Mother’s Day,” my husband asked.

“I’d like to take the flower,” I said.

So we drove out to Woodbine. As we walked through the wrought iron gate and down the stone path, the deep azure of the sky enveloped me. The sun shone so bright, yet a brilliant cold pierced my skin and lungs. As we walked along saying nothing, divergent thoughts began to swirl around me. They began to merge into one.

As we reached the site, we found a blanket of buttercups and clusters of tiny blue flowers. A gift. Planted by the One who knew I would understand. Not everyone would know the name of the small blue flower. And almost no one else would know buttercups always made her laugh. Someday I will write “Buttercup Laughter.” But for now, my heart is too raw

Mother’s Day

Posies by a gravestone peeking from its side,

       Tiny dots of blue with yellow deep inside

Little band of color stands alone in shades of green

      Planted by a Hand that for now remains unseen.

And on this day the bright sun

        barely warms my heart

The bright sun that hangs in heaven….

       where You once hung suspended

And it could not warm Your heart

       The bright sun could not warm Your broken heart…

I stand here by the graveside, a mother lost in pain

        yearning to see her child dance lightly once again.

Longings fill this place with empty solitude

       where hope is whispered silently through periwinkle blue.

 “Forget-me-not,” the flowers whisper;

        as if I could forget

your love and lilting laugh

        and carefree dance

“Forget-me-not,” they whisper

        As a breeze strokes their heads

        And I think of the other One

whose love I’ve known

“Remember Me,” You cry through flowers like the star

      that hung once in the night for another mother’s child

That child, You were also born to die too soon

     while a sword pierced her heart with an empty solitude.

“Forget-Me-not,” Your flowers whisper

        as if I could forget

Your love and joyful laugh

        and steady hands....

“Forget-Me-not,” You whisper

        And pain stabs my heart

To think I could forget the One

        Whose gentle love envelops me

And on this day the bright sun

        barely warms my heart

The bright sun that hangs in heaven….

        Where You once hung suspended

And it could not warm Your heart

No, it could not warm Your heart

        The bright sun did not warm Your broken heart…